1 00:00:02,403 --> 00:00:07,007 [ Bell Tolling ] 2 00:00:14,648 --> 00:00:17,385 [ Bird Screeches ] 3 00:00:50,718 --> 00:00:53,421 [ Sighs ] 4 00:00:53,454 --> 00:00:57,024 There's some things I never told you about Maria. 5 00:00:57,057 --> 00:01:00,894 Save the details till after the honeymoon, homeboy. 6 00:01:00,928 --> 00:01:02,930 [ Liquid Pouring ] 7 00:01:02,963 --> 00:01:05,166 She has some problems. 8 00:01:31,425 --> 00:01:35,596 Daddy, I think there's a snap undone. Would you-- Would you take a look? 9 00:01:35,629 --> 00:01:38,232 I don't think so, honey. Are you sure? 10 00:01:40,234 --> 00:01:44,672 [ Sighs ] I'm not feeling very well. 11 00:01:44,705 --> 00:01:47,941 Of course you don't, honey. You're getting married. Get used to it. 12 00:01:47,975 --> 00:01:50,744 -[ Paper Rustles ] -[ Sighs ] 13 00:01:51,912 --> 00:01:53,747 Here we go. 14 00:01:53,781 --> 00:01:57,218 She's a bit, compulsive. 15 00:01:57,251 --> 00:02:00,388 Maybe I should say compulsive and neurotic. 16 00:02:00,421 --> 00:02:03,157 Yeah, I know. She's Maria. 17 00:02:03,191 --> 00:02:05,926 She sleeps with a flyswatter. 18 00:02:05,959 --> 00:02:09,062 Hell, if I looked like Maria, I'd sleep with a bazooka. 19 00:02:10,398 --> 00:02:12,566 So you guys got some issues. 20 00:02:12,600 --> 00:02:15,603 It's called modern romance. 21 00:02:29,082 --> 00:02:32,486 If you need it, there's an ice chest under your mother's seat. 22 00:02:34,555 --> 00:02:38,426 I'm okay. I feel better now. 23 00:02:42,263 --> 00:02:45,833 [ Gagging ] 24 00:02:50,971 --> 00:02:53,807 [ Whimpers ] 25 00:02:53,841 --> 00:02:57,878 Careful of your dress, dear. 26 00:02:57,911 --> 00:03:03,451 She, uh-- She cleans the house twice a day on her day off. 27 00:03:03,484 --> 00:03:05,219 Yeah, well, at least she works. 28 00:03:05,253 --> 00:03:07,488 We get to go to all those great magazine parties. 29 00:03:07,521 --> 00:03:11,925 Hey, remember Claudia from the Elle party? Oh, oh, man. 30 00:03:11,959 --> 00:03:15,229 She's always locking the bathroom door and-- 31 00:03:16,897 --> 00:03:19,667 She gets suicidal from time to time. 32 00:03:19,700 --> 00:03:22,536 All women get suicidal from time to time. 33 00:03:28,509 --> 00:03:31,245 God, I love her. 34 00:03:31,279 --> 00:03:33,213 [ Seagull Screeches ] 35 00:03:37,117 --> 00:03:39,687 [ Ship Horn Blowing ] 36 00:03:39,720 --> 00:03:42,723 [ Seagull Screeches ] 37 00:03:42,756 --> 00:03:46,327 So how long have you known all of this? 38 00:03:46,360 --> 00:03:50,331 They just sort of creep up on you, you know? One by one. 39 00:03:50,364 --> 00:03:54,268 -And before you know it-- -I say, don't panic. 40 00:03:54,302 --> 00:03:56,570 It's probably just a phase. 41 00:03:56,604 --> 00:03:59,239 -[ Bell Tolling ] -Yeah. 42 00:03:59,273 --> 00:04:01,275 Yeah. 43 00:04:01,309 --> 00:04:03,243 [ Woman ] Here she is. 44 00:04:07,381 --> 00:04:09,583 [ Chattering ] 45 00:04:09,617 --> 00:04:13,220 -You guys are awfully late. -We're supposed to be late. 46 00:04:13,253 --> 00:04:17,658 -[ Maria ] Mom, you got my train? -[ Dottie ] I got it, dear. 47 00:04:17,691 --> 00:04:22,896 [ Hank ] Come on, darling. [Dottie ] I still think that dress is too tight. 48 00:04:22,930 --> 00:04:27,335 [ Man ] I require and charge you both as you will answer on the day of judgment, 49 00:04:27,368 --> 00:04:31,472 when the secrets of all hearts will be disclosed, 50 00:04:31,505 --> 00:04:34,274 that if either of you know any impediment, 51 00:04:34,308 --> 00:04:38,379 why you may not be lawfully joined together in matrimony, 52 00:04:38,412 --> 00:04:40,080 do now confess it. 53 00:04:42,916 --> 00:04:45,218 [ Maria ] How much do you love me? 54 00:04:45,252 --> 00:04:47,421 Oh, a thousand. 55 00:04:47,455 --> 00:04:50,491 Only a thousand? That's not very much. 56 00:04:50,524 --> 00:04:55,228 I can even count to a thousand. One, two, three, four-- 57 00:04:55,262 --> 00:04:58,966 Okay, a hundred thousand million billion. 58 00:04:58,999 --> 00:05:03,704 That's better. We're gonna be late for Alfred. 59 00:05:03,737 --> 00:05:07,608 Yeah, but I love the reason. Besides, my Juliet, 60 00:05:07,641 --> 00:05:11,345 wilt thou leave me so unsatisfied? 61 00:05:14,014 --> 00:05:19,853 How much satisfaction can'st thou get in, 11 minutes? 62 00:05:20,921 --> 00:05:23,557 I'll be nicer in therapy. 63 00:05:30,898 --> 00:05:34,001 How about the issues we were discussing last time? 64 00:05:34,034 --> 00:05:36,437 [ Maria ] Things are still the same. 65 00:05:36,470 --> 00:05:40,574 He's not nice to my friends or my parents. 66 00:05:40,608 --> 00:05:45,579 He's cheap. He flirts, and he has a terrible temper. 67 00:05:45,613 --> 00:05:48,315 But I'm a loving, tolerant woman, so-- 68 00:05:49,883 --> 00:05:52,620 Oh, that feels so good. 69 00:05:55,956 --> 00:05:57,825 [ Moans ] 70 00:06:00,293 --> 00:06:03,564 She keeps bugging me to build another room onto the house. 71 00:06:03,597 --> 00:06:05,433 We don't have any money, so-- 72 00:06:05,466 --> 00:06:07,735 It would, of course, put his car 73 00:06:07,768 --> 00:06:09,503 out in the driveway for a couple of months. 74 00:06:09,537 --> 00:06:11,872 Okay, okay. 75 00:06:13,106 --> 00:06:15,308 Yes. Yeah. 76 00:06:15,342 --> 00:06:19,847 Oh, right there. Right there. Yes. 77 00:06:19,880 --> 00:06:24,084 Maria, why is this new addition to the house so important to you? 78 00:06:24,117 --> 00:06:27,955 -Because I wanna have a baby. -[ Sighs ] 79 00:06:27,988 --> 00:06:32,292 [ Gasping ] Go deeper. 80 00:06:33,761 --> 00:06:37,865 With all this talk about a baby, how's the sex? 81 00:06:39,433 --> 00:06:41,435 You go first. 82 00:06:41,469 --> 00:06:44,004 -You want me to? -Sure. Why not? 83 00:06:46,540 --> 00:06:48,241 Okay. 84 00:06:51,211 --> 00:06:53,981 Um-- [ Clears Throat ] Tsk. 85 00:06:54,014 --> 00:06:55,916 I-I have a confession to make. 86 00:07:01,188 --> 00:07:04,992 Um, I fake my orgasms. 87 00:07:05,025 --> 00:07:09,196 Oh! Oh! Oh! 88 00:07:09,229 --> 00:07:12,733 -You what? -I didn't wanna tell you. 89 00:07:13,767 --> 00:07:15,936 I didn't want to hurt you. 90 00:07:18,606 --> 00:07:22,142 [ Joseph ] You're telling me you've never had an orgasm? 91 00:07:24,645 --> 00:07:26,146 Not with you. 92 00:07:29,416 --> 00:07:32,252 [ Alfred ] Joseph, it's important you appreciate the risk, 93 00:07:32,285 --> 00:07:35,523 Maria's taking in communicating this to you. 94 00:07:37,925 --> 00:07:39,426 Joseph? 95 00:07:43,130 --> 00:07:46,033 [ Alarm Clock Ringing ] 96 00:07:46,066 --> 00:07:47,801 [ Alarm Stops ] 97 00:07:52,305 --> 00:07:54,041 Maria? 98 00:07:55,943 --> 00:07:58,546 Do you think I'm a lousy lover? 99 00:07:59,547 --> 00:08:01,348 Hmm? 100 00:08:09,657 --> 00:08:11,224 Joseph? 101 00:08:13,727 --> 00:08:16,530 I love you, you know. 102 00:08:19,567 --> 00:08:23,370 -Whoa! -Tell the balcony crew those doors are in. 103 00:08:23,403 --> 00:08:25,939 Yo, Nick, you must have fucked up big. 104 00:08:25,973 --> 00:08:29,409 -We is humbled by youse royal presence, Sir Suits. -Relax, Carlos. 105 00:08:29,442 --> 00:08:33,714 Yo, Nick, I go out on a limb to get you this job, like I always do-- 106 00:08:33,747 --> 00:08:37,450 Oh, I wouldn't work without you, Joseph, my white patron saint. 107 00:08:37,484 --> 00:08:40,087 Well, thank you, Nick, but the problem is, 108 00:08:40,120 --> 00:08:42,690 we're about four months behind after two months on the job. 109 00:08:42,723 --> 00:08:45,893 You geniuses made the schedule. I just took the job. 110 00:08:45,926 --> 00:08:49,997 -Hey, Nick, what's this? -Oh, yeah, go ahead, Tanner. Take a look. 111 00:08:50,030 --> 00:08:53,233 -Yeah? -It's a little discovery of Carlos' here. 112 00:08:53,266 --> 00:08:58,606 -Every hour on the hour. -Holy shit! Oh, man! 113 00:08:58,639 --> 00:09:01,675 This is unbelievable. You gotta check this out. This is unbelievable. 114 00:09:01,709 --> 00:09:03,143 Must be the redhead. 115 00:09:03,176 --> 00:09:05,946 -[ Chuckling ] -[ Tanner ] Oh, man. 116 00:09:07,180 --> 00:09:08,849 Mmm-hmm! 117 00:09:10,483 --> 00:09:12,119 [ Tanner ] Ooh! 118 00:09:12,920 --> 00:09:14,922 You guys are perverts. 119 00:09:14,955 --> 00:09:18,892 Are you kiddin'? This guy's a national treasure. One of a kind. 120 00:09:18,926 --> 00:09:21,161 -Holy shit! -What do you mean? 121 00:09:21,194 --> 00:09:24,031 This guy has anywhere from four to six women a day, one after the other. 122 00:09:24,064 --> 00:09:27,234 [ Nick ] And word has it he pleases every one of 'em. 123 00:09:27,267 --> 00:09:32,172 -Joseph, take a look. -No, I can see just fine. 124 00:09:33,106 --> 00:09:36,176 Oh, my God! Here comes another one. 125 00:09:39,179 --> 00:09:42,215 [ Tanner ] I don't believe it. They just passed each other and said hi. 126 00:09:43,383 --> 00:09:45,452 They said hi to each other. 127 00:09:45,485 --> 00:09:47,387 -Oh, Jesus. -Tanner. 128 00:09:47,420 --> 00:09:49,222 -Yeah? -Let's check out the site. 129 00:09:49,256 --> 00:09:53,727 -All right, Joseph, I am. I am. -Tanner! 130 00:09:53,761 --> 00:09:56,496 -It's gotta be an implant. -An implant? 131 00:09:56,529 --> 00:10:00,467 Yeah, an implant, you know. A lot of guys got 'em. It comes with a pump. 132 00:10:00,500 --> 00:10:04,838 You just pump it up, and it just stays there, you know, whenever you need it 133 00:10:04,872 --> 00:10:07,675 -Sounds like a good idea. -Yeah, I gotta talk to that guy. 134 00:10:07,708 --> 00:10:11,511 That red-head was to die for. Oh, man, I wanna die. 135 00:10:12,512 --> 00:10:14,715 -Tanner? -Yeah? 136 00:10:14,748 --> 00:10:16,917 Does Vicky have orgasms? 137 00:10:16,950 --> 00:10:19,920 -What? -You know, does she-- 138 00:10:19,953 --> 00:10:23,523 Does she come when you're doin' it, or does she fake it? 139 00:10:23,556 --> 00:10:27,327 What? No! Of course, she has orgasms. 140 00:10:27,360 --> 00:10:29,262 I mean, man, she goes crazy. 141 00:10:29,296 --> 00:10:33,100 How do you know? I mean, she could be fakin' it. 142 00:10:33,133 --> 00:10:35,903 You can tell. I mean, they quiver all over. 143 00:10:35,936 --> 00:10:39,673 Believe me, they quiver all over even when they're fakin' it. 144 00:10:42,575 --> 00:10:44,912 Shut the fuck up, would ya? 145 00:10:46,446 --> 00:10:48,481 [ Insect Buzzing ] 146 00:10:50,150 --> 00:10:53,320 -Come on, Freddie, you little bugger. -[ Buzzing Continues ] 147 00:10:53,353 --> 00:10:57,858 -Would you help me with my tie, sweetheart? -Out, baby. Get out. 148 00:10:57,891 --> 00:10:59,993 Maria, we're gonna be late. 149 00:11:00,027 --> 00:11:03,663 Freddie listened to me. Can you believe it? He just flew out the window. 150 00:11:03,697 --> 00:11:08,201 -How do you know it's a he? -Because it bugs me, darling, so it must be a he. 151 00:11:11,671 --> 00:11:14,641 How do I look? Do I have lipstick on my tooth? 152 00:11:14,674 --> 00:11:18,879 Honey, every time we come see your parents, you obsess over the way you look. 153 00:11:18,912 --> 00:11:21,982 Is my dress, okay? Do I need to pull it down or anything? 154 00:11:22,015 --> 00:11:26,119 You look fine. Did you hear me? 155 00:11:26,153 --> 00:11:30,090 -Joseph, your tie is a mess. -[ Sighs ] 156 00:11:33,426 --> 00:11:35,896 Well, hello. And how are the newlyweds? 157 00:11:35,929 --> 00:11:38,732 -Hi, Dottie. -Hi, Mom. We've been married almost seven months now. 158 00:11:38,766 --> 00:11:41,935 Yes, dear. Come on in. 159 00:11:41,969 --> 00:11:44,404 Your father's in the living room. 160 00:11:45,572 --> 00:11:49,076 [ Whispering ] 161 00:11:49,109 --> 00:11:51,678 -Joseph, what are we-- -[ Shouting ] Surprise! 162 00:11:51,711 --> 00:11:54,447 -[ Screams ] -[ Chattering ] 163 00:11:57,818 --> 00:11:59,953 Oh! 164 00:11:59,987 --> 00:12:02,222 [ Laughing ] 165 00:12:02,255 --> 00:12:04,858 I'd say she's excited. What would you say, hmm? 166 00:12:04,892 --> 00:12:08,528 On a scale of one to ten, about a four. 167 00:12:08,561 --> 00:12:11,965 [ Maria ] Oh, my God! [ Laughs ] 168 00:12:11,999 --> 00:12:14,201 -Martini time. -Yeah. 169 00:12:14,234 --> 00:12:18,105 How are you? Oh, my gosh! Look at you! 170 00:12:35,789 --> 00:12:37,424 Why is it when we go to parties, 171 00:12:37,457 --> 00:12:40,760 I always have to track you down like a homing device. 172 00:12:44,564 --> 00:12:49,269 If you loved me, you'd get in that British fantasy of yours and drive me to Vegas. 173 00:12:52,372 --> 00:12:58,178 Okay, let's play "if you love me," shall we? 174 00:13:00,013 --> 00:13:03,817 -Go on. You start. -Okay. 175 00:13:03,851 --> 00:13:07,787 If you loved me, you'd take me to Paris on our second honeymoon. 176 00:13:11,158 --> 00:13:15,628 If you loved me, you wouldn't miss your appointments with Alfred. 177 00:13:15,662 --> 00:13:18,131 You'd buy us a house in Briarwood, 178 00:13:18,165 --> 00:13:22,535 with a big pool and a little froufrou dog. 179 00:13:24,737 --> 00:13:29,742 And you would stop rearranging my closets. 180 00:13:29,776 --> 00:13:33,780 [ Laughs ] A baby girl, 181 00:13:33,813 --> 00:13:35,883 and an air-conditioned garage, 182 00:13:35,916 --> 00:13:40,087 for my 1974 Ferrari Daytona convertible. 183 00:13:41,188 --> 00:13:43,056 I love you, Maria. 184 00:13:43,090 --> 00:13:46,026 Shut up. It's still my turn. 185 00:13:46,059 --> 00:13:48,561 It can always be your turn, sweetheart. 186 00:13:48,595 --> 00:13:52,765 -Oh, baby, is that so? -Mm-hmm. 187 00:13:52,799 --> 00:13:55,802 -Mmm! -[ Zipper Unzipping ] 188 00:13:57,070 --> 00:13:59,006 It's your turn now. 189 00:13:59,772 --> 00:14:02,009 Honey, that's enough. 190 00:14:02,042 --> 00:14:05,045 Oh, we'll both know when it's enough, darling. 191 00:14:08,982 --> 00:14:14,187 -Joseph, even though I can't have an orgasm, -[ Insect Buzzing ] 192 00:14:14,221 --> 00:14:17,124 I still enjoy making love to you. 193 00:14:26,366 --> 00:14:29,036 [ Motorcycle Engine Revving ] 194 00:14:29,069 --> 00:14:31,804 Sometimes I wonder if he loves me. 195 00:14:32,705 --> 00:14:35,342 [ Sighs ] 196 00:14:35,375 --> 00:14:38,511 I feel he always avoids me. 197 00:14:38,545 --> 00:14:42,882 He never returns my calls. His secretary, Connie, is always apologizing for him. 198 00:14:42,916 --> 00:14:44,985 That's not true. 199 00:14:45,018 --> 00:14:48,121 -You're distorting things again. -Just let me finish, okay? 200 00:14:48,155 --> 00:14:52,625 -[ Children Chattering ] -[ Car Horns Honking ] 201 00:14:52,659 --> 00:14:56,329 Connie is embarrassed every time I call because he won't pick up the phone. 202 00:14:56,363 --> 00:14:58,698 She practically admits you're avoiding me. 203 00:14:58,731 --> 00:15:00,700 She calls seven or eight times a day. 204 00:15:00,733 --> 00:15:03,270 -Seven or eight? -Yes, you do! And you embarrass me 205 00:15:03,303 --> 00:15:06,206 in front of my secretary and my associates. 206 00:15:06,239 --> 00:15:08,141 Connie doesn't know how to handle her, 207 00:15:08,175 --> 00:15:11,111 because half the time you call, you're hysterical. 208 00:15:11,144 --> 00:15:13,646 I just need to connect with you during the day, okay? 209 00:15:13,680 --> 00:15:16,716 Just once or twice. Is that too much to ask? 210 00:15:16,749 --> 00:15:18,485 [ Alfred ] Just listen to her, Joseph. 211 00:15:18,518 --> 00:15:20,820 Just listen to what she's saying. 212 00:15:20,853 --> 00:15:22,455 You gotta be kidding me. 213 00:15:22,489 --> 00:15:24,757 Why are you so afraid of being close? 214 00:15:24,791 --> 00:15:28,295 Why in the hell are you always focusing on me? 215 00:15:28,328 --> 00:15:31,999 I'm just tryin' to do my job, for Christ's sakes, and all we ever do in here, 216 00:15:32,032 --> 00:15:34,401 is talk about her problems with me. 217 00:15:34,434 --> 00:15:37,537 What I do, what I don't do, who I am or who I'm not, 218 00:15:37,570 --> 00:15:39,772 that she has an issue with. 219 00:15:43,543 --> 00:15:45,378 [ Sighs ] 220 00:15:51,151 --> 00:15:53,853 I just-- I can't handle it when he gets so angry. 221 00:15:56,656 --> 00:15:59,859 [ Door Opens, Closes ] 222 00:16:00,793 --> 00:16:03,030 Joseph, what is it you want? 223 00:16:05,498 --> 00:16:08,168 I want a good marriage, 224 00:16:09,902 --> 00:16:11,838 a supportive wife. 225 00:16:15,175 --> 00:16:16,976 And I wanna work all these things out, 226 00:16:17,010 --> 00:16:19,346 so that we can have a baby that she wants so much. 227 00:16:19,379 --> 00:16:21,814 Joseph, Maria's doing so much better the past few months. 228 00:16:21,848 --> 00:16:25,752 -She's standing up for herself. It's wonderful. -I know. 229 00:16:25,785 --> 00:16:28,921 But she's still very fragile with you at this point. 230 00:16:28,955 --> 00:16:31,591 This kind of confrontation can't work. 231 00:16:37,764 --> 00:16:40,767 You're right. I know. 232 00:16:40,800 --> 00:16:44,437 It's just that sometimes I feel like I have to stay on top of the situation, 233 00:16:44,471 --> 00:16:46,506 or it'll fall apart. 234 00:16:47,974 --> 00:16:49,776 She'll fall apart. 235 00:16:58,218 --> 00:17:00,520 [ Phone Ringing ] 236 00:17:01,821 --> 00:17:04,557 Hello? Tanner! 237 00:17:04,591 --> 00:17:08,027 No. No, I'll meet you at the site. 238 00:17:16,736 --> 00:17:18,438 [ Sighs ] 239 00:17:21,074 --> 00:17:23,410 [ Sighs ] 240 00:17:23,443 --> 00:17:26,246 [ Siren Wailing In The Distance ] 241 00:17:30,016 --> 00:17:32,051 [ Car Horn Honks ] 242 00:17:34,554 --> 00:17:37,023 [ Pounding ] 243 00:17:43,263 --> 00:17:45,998 [ Wind Whistling ] 244 00:17:51,371 --> 00:17:54,006 [ Helicopter Whirring ] 245 00:18:14,161 --> 00:18:15,995 [ Car Horns Honking ] 246 00:18:16,028 --> 00:18:19,031 [ Motorcycle Engine Revving ] 247 00:18:32,812 --> 00:18:36,483 [ Woman Moaning ] 248 00:18:37,884 --> 00:18:40,687 [ Moaning Continues ] 249 00:18:42,389 --> 00:18:45,425 [ Moaning Continues ] 250 00:18:48,728 --> 00:18:52,665 [ Moaning Continues ] 251 00:19:03,810 --> 00:19:06,413 [ Bell Tolling ] 252 00:19:15,622 --> 00:19:18,325 [ Wind Whistling ] 253 00:19:33,373 --> 00:19:34,674 [ Door Opens ] 254 00:19:34,707 --> 00:19:37,377 -[ Door Slams ] -Joseph? 255 00:19:37,410 --> 00:19:39,379 You got a sick patient here, Alfred. 256 00:19:39,412 --> 00:19:41,648 I suggest we talk in private. 257 00:19:43,250 --> 00:19:45,818 Come here, Alfred. I have a few questions for you. 258 00:19:45,852 --> 00:19:49,756 Joseph, what's going on here now? Y-You're scaring me. 259 00:19:49,789 --> 00:19:51,057 That's good, 'cause you know what? 260 00:19:51,090 --> 00:19:54,160 I'm not totally in control of myself right now. 261 00:19:54,193 --> 00:19:55,828 Sit down, Alfred. 262 00:20:07,407 --> 00:20:09,609 What does the name "Baltazar" mean to you? 263 00:20:14,914 --> 00:20:17,250 You're gonna tell me everything, 264 00:20:17,284 --> 00:20:20,186 and you're gonna start with this doctor. 265 00:20:20,219 --> 00:20:22,522 Do you know him? Did you refer her to him? 266 00:20:22,555 --> 00:20:25,157 No, no. I don't know him. 267 00:20:25,191 --> 00:20:29,195 All I know is, he's a sex therapist that practices on the edge of the law. 268 00:20:29,228 --> 00:20:33,633 They tried to shut him down, but nobody will testify against him. 269 00:20:33,666 --> 00:20:36,002 Can you tell me why she does this? 270 00:20:36,035 --> 00:20:38,705 And forget the bullshit psychobabble, okay? I need to understand! 271 00:20:39,339 --> 00:20:43,610 [ Sighs ] 272 00:20:43,643 --> 00:20:48,415 Tsk. All I can tell you, Joseph, is that Maria exhibits most of the symptoms, 273 00:20:48,448 --> 00:20:51,083 of what is called a borderline personality. 274 00:20:52,552 --> 00:20:55,822 By that I mean she has no real identity. 275 00:20:55,855 --> 00:21:00,793 She has to look outside of herself every moment for assurance, comfort, love. 276 00:21:03,496 --> 00:21:06,165 She can find no sustenance within. 277 00:21:11,671 --> 00:21:15,542 -Shouldn't I have been told this? -Oh, come on, Joseph. 278 00:21:15,575 --> 00:21:17,243 You've witnessed this for years. 279 00:21:17,276 --> 00:21:19,379 I mean, her heightened personality 280 00:21:19,412 --> 00:21:21,781 her need for control at any cost, 281 00:21:21,814 --> 00:21:24,617 the fly obsession, the phone calls. 282 00:21:24,651 --> 00:21:28,455 [ Sighs ] Joseph, you lived it. 283 00:21:29,789 --> 00:21:31,591 You're the expert. 284 00:21:41,834 --> 00:21:46,138 [ Alfred's Voice ] Most borderlines are incurable, Joseph. 285 00:21:46,172 --> 00:21:49,308 They need to be totally reparented. 286 00:21:53,312 --> 00:21:55,281 [ Rain Falling ] 287 00:22:01,954 --> 00:22:05,392 One of our construction sites is on Hinton Street. 288 00:22:13,332 --> 00:22:15,635 I know about Baltazar. 289 00:22:17,604 --> 00:22:20,206 It's not what you think. 290 00:22:20,239 --> 00:22:23,810 Oh, really? What is it then? 291 00:22:23,843 --> 00:22:26,613 Do you come with Baltazar? Is that why you go? 292 00:22:26,646 --> 00:22:28,915 -To learn how to come? -It's not about that. 293 00:22:28,948 --> 00:22:32,385 -Then what is it about? -[ Door Slams ] 294 00:22:32,419 --> 00:22:34,721 You know what? You're a lie! 295 00:22:34,754 --> 00:22:36,889 Our whole marriage is a lie. 296 00:22:36,923 --> 00:22:40,259 -Fuck you. -You wanna tell me why? 297 00:22:40,292 --> 00:22:42,595 I don't feel very close to you right now. 298 00:22:42,629 --> 00:22:45,732 Oh, you don't feel very close to me right now? 299 00:22:45,765 --> 00:22:47,634 You're paying some guy to fuck you! 300 00:22:47,667 --> 00:22:50,570 And you don't feel very close to me right now? 301 00:22:50,603 --> 00:22:52,472 I'm your husband, for Christ's sakes-- 302 00:22:52,505 --> 00:22:54,541 I don't care who you are. 303 00:23:10,657 --> 00:23:14,594 [ Jackhammer Hammering ] 304 00:23:22,469 --> 00:23:24,804 [ Man ] The door is open. 305 00:23:47,827 --> 00:23:49,762 Come in. Sit down. 306 00:24:03,943 --> 00:24:07,714 -Listen-- -Ah, you must be Joseph. 307 00:24:07,747 --> 00:24:11,818 I've been expecting you. Maria's husband. 308 00:24:11,851 --> 00:24:14,721 She's a very special woman. 309 00:24:16,923 --> 00:24:20,459 Look, I don't know who you are or what you think you do, 310 00:24:20,493 --> 00:24:24,997 but I need you to do me a kind favor and stay away from my wife. 311 00:24:25,031 --> 00:24:26,933 She's not a well woman. 312 00:24:26,966 --> 00:24:30,002 I agree. That's why she came to see me. 313 00:24:30,670 --> 00:24:32,539 [ Chuckles ] 314 00:24:32,572 --> 00:24:36,943 Obviously someone have to be very disturbed to come here seeking health. 315 00:24:38,511 --> 00:24:40,813 You don't understand, my friend. 316 00:24:43,349 --> 00:24:47,186 You understand this, Dr. Fuck! 317 00:24:47,219 --> 00:24:50,389 You stay away from my wife, okay? 318 00:24:50,422 --> 00:24:52,491 I know what goes on in here, 'cause I was here. 319 00:24:52,525 --> 00:24:56,596 And it wasn't love or therapy. It wasn't even sex! 320 00:24:56,629 --> 00:24:59,231 It was sadistic abuse. 321 00:25:02,301 --> 00:25:06,172 I hope I've made myself clear. It's over. Now. 322 00:25:21,253 --> 00:25:22,955 Cup of tea? 323 00:25:30,362 --> 00:25:32,732 I'm a therapist, Joseph. 324 00:25:32,765 --> 00:25:35,434 There's a reason for everything I do. 325 00:25:37,303 --> 00:25:40,172 Acting out her abuse fantasy is what enables Maria, 326 00:25:40,206 --> 00:25:43,409 to get past the guilt and anxiety of being intimate. 327 00:25:46,112 --> 00:25:50,750 If we don't express these fantasies, they run our lives insidiously 328 00:25:50,783 --> 00:25:53,352 When she stops asking for abuse, 329 00:25:54,220 --> 00:25:56,823 her need for it will be gone. 330 00:25:57,423 --> 00:25:59,859 [ Chuckles ] 331 00:26:00,927 --> 00:26:04,496 This is insane. It's insane. 332 00:26:04,530 --> 00:26:07,133 I'm sitting here having tea with the doctor who's fucking my wife 333 00:26:07,166 --> 00:26:10,236 and trying to convince me that it's good for her. 334 00:26:10,269 --> 00:26:13,973 Don't you get it, man? She needs medical help. 335 00:26:14,006 --> 00:26:18,845 Maria's been in traditional therapy for seven years. Three therapists. 336 00:26:18,878 --> 00:26:21,614 Which therapy do you think will work at this point? 337 00:26:29,421 --> 00:26:32,391 Do you know what a borderline personality is? 338 00:26:32,424 --> 00:26:35,762 They told you there was no cure, and they were right. 339 00:26:35,795 --> 00:26:39,331 There is no psychoanalytic cure. 340 00:26:39,365 --> 00:26:44,336 The mind, cannot change the mind. 341 00:26:44,370 --> 00:26:47,273 Real change is not a mental process. 342 00:26:51,077 --> 00:26:55,882 Let me guess. You think sex-- 343 00:26:55,915 --> 00:26:59,418 Your sex, in particular, will heal Maria, is that it? 344 00:26:59,451 --> 00:27:02,221 Yes and no. I hold no dominion over my teachings. 345 00:27:02,254 --> 00:27:04,356 I only know they work. 346 00:27:04,390 --> 00:27:09,328 But, yes, conscious sex that achieves bliss 347 00:27:09,361 --> 00:27:12,865 is the greatest healer there is. 348 00:27:12,899 --> 00:27:16,402 -So the way to heal the woman is to fuck her? -No. 349 00:27:16,435 --> 00:27:20,940 Conscious sex physically and emotionally integrated 350 00:27:20,973 --> 00:27:23,409 is one way to heal a human being. 351 00:27:23,442 --> 00:27:26,045 Ecstasy heals the unconscious. 352 00:27:27,013 --> 00:27:29,816 A woman can heal a man as well. 353 00:27:29,849 --> 00:27:32,018 Well, I hope you don't mind, Doctor, 354 00:27:32,051 --> 00:27:34,653 but I'm gonna try some other approaches at this point. 355 00:27:34,687 --> 00:27:36,823 I know you love Maria, Joseph. 356 00:27:36,856 --> 00:27:40,092 I'm not here to take that away from you. 357 00:27:41,861 --> 00:27:44,831 Just don't make me take this any further. 358 00:27:47,800 --> 00:27:49,535 I am not the enemy. 359 00:27:52,371 --> 00:27:54,573 I don't know what you are. 360 00:28:30,943 --> 00:28:33,245 [ Sniffling ] 361 00:28:42,688 --> 00:28:45,024 [ Chattering ] 362 00:28:53,199 --> 00:28:56,068 [ Car Engine Starting ] 363 00:29:17,356 --> 00:29:20,559 [ Dogs Barking ] 364 00:29:21,393 --> 00:29:24,130 [ Children Laughing ] 365 00:29:24,163 --> 00:29:28,000 [ Chattering ] 366 00:29:33,940 --> 00:29:37,043 * [ Dramatic ] 367 00:29:51,357 --> 00:29:53,225 * [ Continues ] 368 00:30:43,042 --> 00:30:45,744 [ Clock Ticking ] 369 00:30:49,148 --> 00:30:51,717 [ Indistinct Clicking ] 370 00:30:51,750 --> 00:30:53,785 [ Door Closing ] 371 00:31:03,329 --> 00:31:07,166 Oh, hi, sweetheart. I'm almost done with the kitchen. 372 00:31:09,268 --> 00:31:10,702 What are you doin'? 373 00:31:11,904 --> 00:31:14,273 What does it look like I'm doing? 374 00:31:14,306 --> 00:31:18,277 The entire house is infested with bugs. 375 00:31:18,310 --> 00:31:22,748 First I spray with the Raid to kill any eggs, and then I seal. 376 00:31:22,781 --> 00:31:27,186 Maria, we discussed the fact that flies do not lay eggs in the house. 377 00:31:27,219 --> 00:31:29,655 Ants, Joseph. Ants! 378 00:31:29,688 --> 00:31:32,258 The wastebasket was full of them this morning. 379 00:31:35,494 --> 00:31:39,731 Tsk. Maria, we've gotta talk. 380 00:31:39,765 --> 00:31:44,136 Okay. Just let me finish the kitchen first. 381 00:31:44,170 --> 00:31:46,438 And if you wanna help, you can start cleaning the bathroom. 382 00:31:46,472 --> 00:31:48,941 Just go through your drawers, okay? 383 00:32:09,028 --> 00:32:10,296 Hi. 384 00:32:11,663 --> 00:32:12,898 What time is it? 385 00:32:15,467 --> 00:32:18,971 It's 5:45 a.m. You busy? 386 00:32:19,605 --> 00:32:22,508 No. No. Of course not. 387 00:32:22,541 --> 00:32:25,744 Uh, well, I guess we'll have some breakfast. 388 00:32:33,352 --> 00:32:35,554 Maria's gettin' worse. 389 00:32:37,623 --> 00:32:40,292 I'm sure she's very frightened. 390 00:32:43,029 --> 00:32:45,197 Therapy isn't working. 391 00:32:51,270 --> 00:32:53,772 I want you to teach me what you do. 392 00:32:55,107 --> 00:32:57,243 You want to learn from me? 393 00:32:57,276 --> 00:32:59,845 I wanna learn how to heal my wife. 394 00:33:00,546 --> 00:33:02,681 That's not possible. 395 00:33:08,487 --> 00:33:12,024 You fascinate me. First you want to destroy me. 396 00:33:12,058 --> 00:33:14,726 Now you want to become my acolyte. 397 00:33:18,997 --> 00:33:21,300 Do you play a musical instrument? 398 00:33:22,701 --> 00:33:24,002 No. 399 00:33:29,708 --> 00:33:34,413 Do you think you have the ability to put aside your rage and listen? 400 00:33:34,446 --> 00:33:36,815 Look, the rage is gone, okay? 401 00:33:36,848 --> 00:33:39,718 The only thing that's important to me now is helping Maria. 402 00:33:41,587 --> 00:33:43,622 If I agree to help you, 403 00:33:43,655 --> 00:33:47,459 you must understand it means precisely that. 404 00:33:47,493 --> 00:33:49,328 I'm helping you. 405 00:33:50,562 --> 00:33:52,030 Maria has her own path. 406 00:33:53,865 --> 00:33:55,367 I understand. 407 00:33:55,401 --> 00:33:57,536 I'm not sure you do. 408 00:33:57,569 --> 00:33:59,971 And you have to promise me, 409 00:34:00,005 --> 00:34:02,108 you'll never see Maria again. 410 00:34:02,141 --> 00:34:06,278 Ah! Is that what you're really doing here, Joseph? 411 00:34:06,312 --> 00:34:09,515 -Preventing me seeing your wife? -Do we have a deal or not? 412 00:34:12,551 --> 00:34:14,120 I doubt the rage is gone. 413 00:34:15,121 --> 00:34:17,723 But we can put it to good use. 414 00:34:18,857 --> 00:34:20,959 And I agree with you. 415 00:34:20,992 --> 00:34:23,795 As I teach you the ways of love, 416 00:34:23,829 --> 00:34:27,333 it would not be my place to see Maria. 417 00:34:31,337 --> 00:34:34,306 I saw you at the symphony the other night. 418 00:34:34,340 --> 00:34:37,676 -I followed you there. -I'm the substitute. 419 00:34:37,709 --> 00:34:42,080 I'd like to play more, but I don't have the time to devote myself. 420 00:34:42,114 --> 00:34:44,516 So, we have a deal. 421 00:34:44,550 --> 00:34:48,820 You can choose to leave at anytime, and I may ask you to leave. 422 00:34:48,854 --> 00:34:53,592 But the work and our relationship must remain strictly confidential. 423 00:35:03,135 --> 00:35:04,370 Joseph? 424 00:35:07,773 --> 00:35:10,209 Do you really love Maria that much? 425 00:35:16,415 --> 00:35:18,484 Too bad for you. 426 00:35:20,752 --> 00:35:24,723 Okay, describe to me how you make love to a woman. 427 00:35:26,692 --> 00:35:30,696 And tell me, in detail, when and how you make love. 428 00:35:33,332 --> 00:35:34,600 Well, 429 00:35:36,802 --> 00:35:39,871 one of us starts kissing the other one, 430 00:35:39,905 --> 00:35:42,741 usually at night before we go to bed. 431 00:35:45,711 --> 00:35:48,580 Then I kiss her breasts for a while. 432 00:35:48,614 --> 00:35:49,648 How? 433 00:35:49,681 --> 00:35:51,250 -How? -Mmm. 434 00:35:56,888 --> 00:35:59,691 I, uh, I kiss. 435 00:36:01,293 --> 00:36:06,665 I suck and twirl my tongue. 436 00:36:09,935 --> 00:36:11,870 How does it feel? 437 00:36:12,538 --> 00:36:14,273 Aroused. 438 00:36:16,808 --> 00:36:18,844 Like I want her. 439 00:36:19,945 --> 00:36:23,915 Then, um, kiss her tummy for a while. 440 00:36:27,152 --> 00:36:30,489 Turn her over sometimes and kiss her bottom. 441 00:36:31,257 --> 00:36:33,191 Like to do that. 442 00:36:33,225 --> 00:36:36,595 -How does she feel? -Uh-- 443 00:36:38,697 --> 00:36:41,233 I don't know. 444 00:36:41,267 --> 00:36:44,002 [ Pen Scratching Paper ] 445 00:36:49,741 --> 00:36:55,581 Then, uh, I usually kiss her down there for a while. 446 00:36:55,614 --> 00:36:58,350 Down there? You mean, her vagina? 447 00:37:00,319 --> 00:37:01,520 Yeah? 448 00:37:02,521 --> 00:37:05,691 -Go on. -And, um-- 449 00:37:07,125 --> 00:37:11,397 Sometimes, I, uh, use my fingers. 450 00:37:11,430 --> 00:37:15,334 I, uh-- So I can hold her while we-- 451 00:37:16,968 --> 00:37:18,304 You know. 452 00:37:25,511 --> 00:37:26,878 [ Sighs ] 453 00:37:26,912 --> 00:37:30,449 Then I, uh, get inside her, 454 00:37:31,683 --> 00:37:33,385 and we make love, 455 00:37:34,920 --> 00:37:36,888 like normal, I guess. 456 00:37:38,089 --> 00:37:39,991 Anything else? 457 00:37:43,329 --> 00:37:45,431 Sometimes she cries. 458 00:37:51,970 --> 00:37:55,140 Does Maria ever have an orgasm? 459 00:37:56,174 --> 00:37:58,176 No, I guess not. 460 00:37:58,209 --> 00:37:59,945 Not with me anyway. 461 00:37:59,978 --> 00:38:02,180 Not with anyone, Joseph. 462 00:38:02,213 --> 00:38:04,015 Maria is frigid. 463 00:38:06,117 --> 00:38:09,621 -Do you make love to yourself? -Hmm? 464 00:38:09,655 --> 00:38:11,423 Do you masturbate? 465 00:38:11,457 --> 00:38:14,426 No. No. Not-- 466 00:38:14,460 --> 00:38:16,962 Rarely when I'm in a relationship. 467 00:38:16,995 --> 00:38:20,265 Well, we'll have to change that. 468 00:38:20,298 --> 00:38:24,836 How can you make love to someone else if you can't make love to yourself? 469 00:38:29,375 --> 00:38:32,678 So, Joseph, what are you doing to help Maria? 470 00:38:32,711 --> 00:38:35,647 Well, I do what I can, you know. I try to make her go to therapy-- 471 00:38:35,681 --> 00:38:38,083 Only do what I say. 472 00:38:38,116 --> 00:38:41,920 I don't want you to make love to her until I say otherwise. 473 00:38:41,953 --> 00:38:45,557 I want you to hold her and talk to her in bed, 474 00:38:46,458 --> 00:38:48,894 about intimate things, 475 00:38:48,927 --> 00:38:52,197 the most intimate feelings you're having. 476 00:38:52,230 --> 00:38:55,801 When you sleep, spoon her. 477 00:38:56,635 --> 00:38:58,737 Right side to the bed. 478 00:38:59,771 --> 00:39:03,274 We call this the nurturing position. 479 00:39:53,992 --> 00:39:57,362 * [ Violin ] 480 00:39:57,395 --> 00:39:58,597 * [ Stops ] 481 00:39:58,630 --> 00:40:00,799 [ Baltazar ] Come on in, Joseph. 482 00:40:00,832 --> 00:40:05,070 Go into the room on your left and take off all your clothes except your shorts. 483 00:40:05,937 --> 00:40:09,174 * [ Resumes ] 484 00:40:46,678 --> 00:40:50,348 [ Saw Buzzing ] 485 00:40:57,388 --> 00:40:59,958 [ Saw Continues ] 486 00:41:01,426 --> 00:41:04,262 Nick! Nick! 487 00:41:08,934 --> 00:41:10,702 Naw, forget it. 488 00:41:14,072 --> 00:41:16,241 Ah, Joseph. 489 00:41:18,343 --> 00:41:20,912 Come and stand over here. 490 00:41:20,946 --> 00:41:23,148 I want you to look in the mirror. 491 00:41:23,181 --> 00:41:26,652 Tell me what you see. Tell me about your body. 492 00:41:27,653 --> 00:41:30,589 You're joking, right? 493 00:41:30,622 --> 00:41:34,092 Okay, then. Is this as far as we go? 494 00:41:42,500 --> 00:41:45,704 I guess I'm a bit too thin. 495 00:41:47,639 --> 00:41:50,108 My legs are definitely too skinny. 496 00:41:53,511 --> 00:41:56,481 I don't know. It's fine. Why? 497 00:41:56,514 --> 00:42:00,886 Well, you stand as if you don't like your body. 498 00:42:00,919 --> 00:42:04,956 I like your body. It's lean, strong. 499 00:42:08,026 --> 00:42:11,863 Capable hands, well-defined feet. 500 00:42:11,897 --> 00:42:13,765 Of course, you could change it if you wanted, 501 00:42:13,799 --> 00:42:16,902 but it's better to change how you feel about it. 502 00:42:18,937 --> 00:42:24,643 Anyone that doesn't totally accept their body can never experience ecstasy, 503 00:42:24,676 --> 00:42:27,613 can never enable another to experience it. 504 00:42:29,514 --> 00:42:32,017 What do you think about your penis? 505 00:42:36,454 --> 00:42:38,523 Well, to be honest, I like it. 506 00:42:38,556 --> 00:42:41,359 It's large and powerful. 507 00:42:41,392 --> 00:42:44,129 Good. I want you to feel that way. 508 00:42:44,863 --> 00:42:46,865 I'm sure it's true. 509 00:42:46,898 --> 00:42:51,336 Later on, I can give you some exercises to further increase its size. 510 00:42:51,369 --> 00:42:53,304 Good for you. Good for Maria. 511 00:42:54,439 --> 00:42:59,244 Now, every night before you go to sleep, 512 00:42:59,277 --> 00:43:01,713 [ Baltazar, Continuing ] I want you to practice what I call, 513 00:43:01,747 --> 00:43:04,049 the "bliss carezza." 514 00:43:06,852 --> 00:43:09,621 Barely touching Maria, 515 00:43:09,655 --> 00:43:13,391 tenderly stroke her body from head to toe with your hand. 516 00:43:14,693 --> 00:43:17,663 [ Maria Moaning ] 517 00:43:17,696 --> 00:43:20,531 [ Baltazar ] We are sensitizing her body, 518 00:43:22,233 --> 00:43:24,670 awakening her ecstatic responses. 519 00:43:27,939 --> 00:43:30,642 Then, her hand on you. 520 00:43:36,314 --> 00:43:38,583 Imagine life energy, 521 00:43:38,616 --> 00:43:40,919 flowing through her hands. 522 00:43:47,325 --> 00:43:49,661 Feel the electricity. 523 00:43:49,695 --> 00:43:51,629 [ Exhaling ] 524 00:44:09,280 --> 00:44:12,483 [ Maria ] I promised Joseph I wouldn't come here. 525 00:44:14,986 --> 00:44:16,788 I don't want to hurt him 526 00:44:17,655 --> 00:44:18,990 or us. 527 00:44:23,661 --> 00:44:25,330 It's just-- 528 00:44:26,631 --> 00:44:28,700 Sometimes I get scared. 529 00:44:39,010 --> 00:44:41,012 Would you like to dance? 530 00:44:45,283 --> 00:44:47,853 I always wanted to be a ballroom dancer. 531 00:44:47,886 --> 00:44:51,222 You know, the kind that dons a tux every night 532 00:44:52,023 --> 00:44:53,792 and dances the world? 533 00:44:55,526 --> 00:44:58,429 * [ Classical ] 534 00:45:31,029 --> 00:45:33,064 Did you enjoy the dance? 535 00:45:35,200 --> 00:45:36,534 Yes. 536 00:45:37,468 --> 00:45:40,738 As did I, very much. 537 00:45:41,973 --> 00:45:44,542 And if you enjoy the dance, Maria-- 538 00:45:46,644 --> 00:45:49,080 Then the dance is enough. 539 00:45:51,817 --> 00:45:53,351 I promise. 540 00:45:56,121 --> 00:45:58,089 Have a cigar. They're very mild. 541 00:45:58,123 --> 00:46:00,892 -Oh, no. No, thank you. -Have one anyway. 542 00:46:16,241 --> 00:46:20,411 Most men fear women's power, Joseph. 543 00:46:20,445 --> 00:46:24,816 A sexually conscious woman is as powerful as any being on the planet. 544 00:46:26,051 --> 00:46:28,686 We're entering a new era. 545 00:46:28,719 --> 00:46:31,489 It will be the resurgence of the divine feminine spirit. 546 00:46:32,757 --> 00:46:34,960 We must honor that spirit, 547 00:46:34,993 --> 00:46:36,661 in ourselves, 548 00:46:37,328 --> 00:46:38,997 and in others. 549 00:46:41,933 --> 00:46:45,904 You have to suck on it once in a while, Joseph. Otherwise, it goes out. 550 00:47:00,318 --> 00:47:03,088 The goal of sex is not orgasm, Joseph, 551 00:47:03,855 --> 00:47:05,423 but ecstasy. 552 00:47:07,225 --> 00:47:10,561 Maria's satisfaction will give you ecstasy. 553 00:47:10,595 --> 00:47:12,130 Nothing else. 554 00:47:14,232 --> 00:47:17,502 There are nine levels-- Movements, I call them, 555 00:47:17,535 --> 00:47:19,770 to a woman's orgasm. 556 00:47:19,804 --> 00:47:24,042 Now, most lovers only achieve level four, 557 00:47:24,075 --> 00:47:26,444 the ultimate release. 558 00:47:26,477 --> 00:47:29,214 But it's just the threshold. 559 00:47:29,247 --> 00:47:31,349 Between movements five and nine 560 00:47:31,382 --> 00:47:33,351 is where true healing occurs. 561 00:47:33,384 --> 00:47:35,286 [ Seagull Screeches ] 562 00:47:35,320 --> 00:47:37,688 To reach these movements, 563 00:47:37,722 --> 00:47:41,126 you must practice with diligence the exercises I give you. 564 00:47:41,159 --> 00:47:43,128 One of their purposes is 565 00:47:43,161 --> 00:47:46,731 to make orgasm and ejaculation a voluntary act. 566 00:47:46,764 --> 00:47:48,666 I thought they were the same thing. 567 00:47:48,699 --> 00:47:50,768 Most people do. 568 00:47:50,801 --> 00:47:55,373 In truth, both orgasm and ejaculation are governed by 569 00:47:55,406 --> 00:47:59,410 different neurological mechanisms. 570 00:47:59,444 --> 00:48:02,948 You must learn to separate and control each at will. 571 00:48:05,250 --> 00:48:06,985 What do you mean? 572 00:48:07,018 --> 00:48:11,122 The only way to really satisfy a woman and yourself is to have control, 573 00:48:12,257 --> 00:48:14,960 complete control over your ejaculation. 574 00:48:17,862 --> 00:48:21,266 Then you are no longer led around by your penis. 575 00:48:22,968 --> 00:48:24,970 This has far-reaching implications 576 00:48:25,003 --> 00:48:27,672 in all areas of life, don't you think? 577 00:48:33,411 --> 00:48:37,015 So, are you saying that I'm never supposed to come? 578 00:48:37,048 --> 00:48:39,250 When you choose. 579 00:48:39,284 --> 00:48:42,187 That way you don't dissipate your life force. 580 00:48:42,220 --> 00:48:44,990 Don't you feel tired after you've made love? 581 00:48:47,658 --> 00:48:51,762 I will teach you how to "injaculate," 582 00:48:51,796 --> 00:48:55,500 so you can have many orgasms without losing your power. 583 00:48:56,467 --> 00:48:59,704 Yes, I will teach you and Maria, 584 00:48:59,737 --> 00:49:02,773 a greater pleasure than you imagined possible. 585 00:49:04,342 --> 00:49:06,577 Go on. Let's see how you do. 586 00:49:13,651 --> 00:49:16,554 [ Stopwatch Ticking ] 587 00:49:21,826 --> 00:49:24,729 [ Gasping, Coughing ] 588 00:49:27,398 --> 00:49:29,600 I-- I can go a lot further. 589 00:49:29,634 --> 00:49:32,837 I just got-- [ Gulps ] Some lungs in my water. 590 00:49:37,775 --> 00:49:41,812 [ Baltazar ] Okay. Using your left hand, close your left nostril. 591 00:49:41,846 --> 00:49:45,450 Breathe in through your right nostril to a count of seven. 592 00:49:45,483 --> 00:49:48,653 -[ Inhaling Deeply ] -Then close both nostrils 593 00:49:48,686 --> 00:49:51,522 and hold for a count of 14. 594 00:49:51,556 --> 00:49:56,627 Open the left nostril and breathe out through a count of seven. 595 00:49:56,661 --> 00:49:58,763 Close the right nostril 596 00:49:58,796 --> 00:50:01,866 and hold for a count of 14. 597 00:50:01,899 --> 00:50:04,469 -Keeping the left nostril open, -[ Gasps ] 598 00:50:04,502 --> 00:50:07,372 breathe in to a count of seven. 599 00:50:07,405 --> 00:50:09,674 -[ Exhales Deeply ] -Close both nostrils. 600 00:50:09,707 --> 00:50:12,143 [ Breathing ] 601 00:50:13,211 --> 00:50:16,047 [ Laughing ] 602 00:50:16,081 --> 00:50:18,516 Why would anybody wanna do this? 603 00:50:20,685 --> 00:50:22,820 [ Sighs ] 604 00:50:22,853 --> 00:50:25,323 Okay, Joseph, I'm ready to come down. 605 00:50:25,356 --> 00:50:27,658 [ Exhales ] 606 00:50:27,692 --> 00:50:29,994 -[ Chuckling ] -Joseph, come on. 607 00:50:35,266 --> 00:50:39,270 No sex without condoms, no booze, no drugs? 608 00:50:39,304 --> 00:50:43,174 Now you're tellin' me I can't even come? 609 00:50:43,208 --> 00:50:45,276 I know. It's depressing, isn't it? 610 00:50:45,310 --> 00:50:46,977 Sure, it is. 611 00:50:53,651 --> 00:50:55,153 -Hey. -Hey. 612 00:50:55,186 --> 00:50:57,255 -I just have to run an errand. I'll be right back. -Okay. 613 00:50:57,288 --> 00:51:00,057 Done your exercises? 614 00:51:00,091 --> 00:51:04,295 Well, I-- I tried, but, uh-- I just can't do it. 615 00:51:04,329 --> 00:51:09,534 I can't just think of myself. I need to-- I need to fantasize. 616 00:51:09,567 --> 00:51:13,471 Go to the White Room, Joseph. Try again. 617 00:51:13,504 --> 00:51:16,274 Concentrate on your own sexual power. 618 00:51:16,307 --> 00:51:19,610 Don't throw it away on fantasy 619 00:51:19,644 --> 00:51:22,747 You don't want me to take you through them, do you? 620 00:51:24,782 --> 00:51:25,950 No. 621 00:52:13,998 --> 00:52:17,101 [ Baltazar ] "Maria remains a mystery. 622 00:52:17,134 --> 00:52:21,272 "It's hard for me to determine the roots of her sexual dysfunction, 623 00:52:21,306 --> 00:52:24,742 "or the extent of her childhood trauma. 624 00:52:24,775 --> 00:52:30,114 "There have, to date, been no repressed memory flashes or nightmares. 625 00:52:30,147 --> 00:52:33,951 "Yet she lives in a constant state of suppressed paranoia. 626 00:52:36,887 --> 00:52:39,724 "Maria is oddly protective of Joseph. 627 00:52:41,058 --> 00:52:43,528 "He seems to be a good person, 628 00:52:43,561 --> 00:52:45,896 "captured by Maria's intense passion, 629 00:52:45,930 --> 00:52:49,934 "which often springs forth to surprise me at any moment, 630 00:52:49,967 --> 00:52:53,271 "captured by her beauty and seductive charms, 631 00:52:53,304 --> 00:52:57,174 "and, most likely, captured by his own need 632 00:52:57,208 --> 00:53:01,045 "to suck love from those who are too wounded to give it freely. 633 00:53:04,749 --> 00:53:06,551 "I know this man." 634 00:53:12,990 --> 00:53:15,426 [ Coughing ] 635 00:53:17,862 --> 00:53:20,231 [ Footsteps Approaching ] 636 00:53:22,132 --> 00:53:27,905 Finally, Hera: The Trials of the Goddess Obscura. 637 00:53:27,938 --> 00:53:30,641 First published in 1908. 638 00:53:30,675 --> 00:53:33,944 It's been out of print since 1932. 639 00:53:33,978 --> 00:53:36,547 You have yet to let me down, Eva. 640 00:53:37,982 --> 00:53:42,520 I find the combination of charm and intelligence, 641 00:53:42,553 --> 00:53:44,755 a rare union these days. 642 00:53:52,062 --> 00:53:54,465 [ Baltazar ] "Maria will take time. 643 00:53:54,499 --> 00:53:58,269 "She is in the darkness before self-realization. 644 00:53:58,303 --> 00:54:00,605 "She needs to feel free to express herself 645 00:54:00,638 --> 00:54:03,408 "in ways she cannot with her husband. 646 00:54:03,441 --> 00:54:07,845 "She needs to be released from the burdens of her shame and self-hatred. 647 00:54:08,713 --> 00:54:10,281 "I will try." 648 00:54:18,989 --> 00:54:21,526 How are the exercises going? 649 00:54:23,828 --> 00:54:25,062 Fine. 650 00:54:26,831 --> 00:54:28,599 Everything's going fine. 651 00:54:28,633 --> 00:54:31,536 I want you to do them three times a day. 652 00:54:31,569 --> 00:54:33,471 Draw the energy up to the heart chakra 653 00:54:33,504 --> 00:54:36,974 and then progress to the third eye, as we discussed. 654 00:54:37,007 --> 00:54:39,477 [ Laughs ] I work all day. 655 00:54:41,278 --> 00:54:43,481 Then I suggest you close your door. 656 00:54:45,850 --> 00:54:48,719 Can you explain it to me? 657 00:54:48,753 --> 00:54:52,657 Well, Joseph, you know, the construction supervisor, 658 00:54:52,690 --> 00:54:56,193 is talking about chakras, reads books about Hinduism. 659 00:54:56,226 --> 00:54:59,129 My Joseph is talking about chakras! 660 00:54:59,163 --> 00:55:01,532 I think Joseph's discovery that his relationship with you 661 00:55:01,566 --> 00:55:04,301 is not what he thought it was has had a profound effect. 662 00:55:04,335 --> 00:55:07,572 It's like he has this inner life that I-- 663 00:55:09,940 --> 00:55:12,877 -[ Chuckles ] Oh. -W-What? 664 00:55:14,545 --> 00:55:16,414 Nothing. 665 00:55:16,447 --> 00:55:19,016 I just had a bizarre thought. 666 00:55:23,153 --> 00:55:26,190 Anyway, um, last night, 667 00:55:26,223 --> 00:55:29,293 we just sat in bed 668 00:55:29,326 --> 00:55:32,597 and talked, sort of. 669 00:55:34,264 --> 00:55:36,333 Tell me. 670 00:55:36,367 --> 00:55:38,569 [ Laughing ] I ca-- I can't. 671 00:55:42,740 --> 00:55:43,941 Okay. 672 00:55:44,609 --> 00:55:45,776 Um-- 673 00:55:47,378 --> 00:55:49,380 He sat me down in front of a mirror, 674 00:55:49,414 --> 00:55:53,117 and he asked me to masturbate for him. 675 00:55:53,150 --> 00:55:57,855 He wanted me to show him step-by-step how I like to be touched. 676 00:55:59,490 --> 00:56:02,059 He wanted to know how to please me. 677 00:56:03,761 --> 00:56:05,463 How did that feel? 678 00:56:05,496 --> 00:56:08,933 Well, I wouldn't do it at first. I was too embarrassed. 679 00:56:10,134 --> 00:56:12,670 Then he did it. [ Chuckling ] 680 00:56:14,138 --> 00:56:18,876 I learned so much about him by watching him, 681 00:56:20,778 --> 00:56:22,913 how he touched himself. 682 00:56:25,850 --> 00:56:27,485 Then I did it. 683 00:56:30,154 --> 00:56:33,323 Do you feel you got closer to an orgasm? 684 00:56:33,357 --> 00:56:37,728 Oh, God, no! I was far too self-conscious. 685 00:56:37,762 --> 00:56:39,063 But this is good. 686 00:56:41,131 --> 00:56:43,568 Uh, before we end though, Maria, 687 00:56:43,601 --> 00:56:47,304 I would like to encourage you to return to therapy with a greater commitment. 688 00:56:47,337 --> 00:56:48,673 I don't know. 689 00:56:50,708 --> 00:56:53,611 I worry too much when I see you. 690 00:56:53,644 --> 00:56:56,113 I try to control my thoughts. 691 00:56:56,146 --> 00:56:57,815 We are what we think, Maria. 692 00:56:57,848 --> 00:57:01,118 Life is learning to come to terms with our thoughts. 693 00:57:01,151 --> 00:57:04,822 But the terms of my thoughts are unreasonable, Alfred. 694 00:57:06,190 --> 00:57:08,759 It's just as well I leave them alone. 695 00:57:10,628 --> 00:57:13,864 Start by using your ring finger. 696 00:57:13,898 --> 00:57:17,001 Slip it in gently and curl it, 697 00:57:17,034 --> 00:57:20,971 so your fingertip is touching the ceiling of the yoni. 698 00:57:21,005 --> 00:57:23,140 Go as deep as you can. 699 00:57:23,173 --> 00:57:26,210 Then slide your finger down until you feel it. 700 00:57:28,445 --> 00:57:30,080 How will I know? 701 00:57:30,114 --> 00:57:31,882 Most likely, she'll tell you. 702 00:57:31,916 --> 00:57:34,151 She'll feel it if you don't. 703 00:57:35,620 --> 00:57:38,088 When you find the sacred spot, 704 00:57:38,122 --> 00:57:40,658 never break eye contact with Maria. 705 00:57:40,691 --> 00:57:45,496 [ Moaning, Gasping ] 706 00:57:45,530 --> 00:57:47,364 Does it hurt? 707 00:57:48,432 --> 00:57:50,501 No, it's just sensitive. 708 00:57:50,535 --> 00:57:53,137 Is it too much? 709 00:57:53,170 --> 00:57:56,240 No. It feels raw. 710 00:57:58,108 --> 00:58:01,111 Almost like it's burning. 711 00:58:01,145 --> 00:58:04,348 [ Gasping ] 712 00:58:04,381 --> 00:58:07,818 The first few times the sacred spot is touched, 713 00:58:09,019 --> 00:58:10,788 it can be frightening. 714 00:58:10,821 --> 00:58:13,323 She may experience pain. 715 00:58:13,357 --> 00:58:15,259 I'm scared, Joseph. 716 00:58:15,893 --> 00:58:17,628 It's okay. 717 00:58:17,662 --> 00:58:21,766 Just keep stroking. The sensation will change. 718 00:58:22,833 --> 00:58:24,368 [ Gasping ] 719 00:58:29,206 --> 00:58:32,142 Stay with me, okay? 720 00:58:32,176 --> 00:58:34,945 -I love you. -I love you too. 721 00:58:35,813 --> 00:58:38,282 [ Gasping ] 722 00:58:39,850 --> 00:58:41,852 [ Laughs, Gasps ] 723 00:58:41,886 --> 00:58:44,789 [ Panting ] 724 00:58:44,822 --> 00:58:48,358 Stay with her for only 30 seconds or so, 725 00:58:48,392 --> 00:58:50,795 and then slowly withdraw 726 00:58:50,828 --> 00:58:54,264 but hold her very closely. 727 00:58:54,298 --> 00:58:58,135 You're assuming the role of healer in this act, Joseph. 728 00:58:59,637 --> 00:59:02,807 All Maria's abuse and psychic hurts, 729 00:59:02,840 --> 00:59:05,776 reside in this sacred spot. 730 00:59:05,810 --> 00:59:08,378 It will take time to release them. 731 00:59:10,114 --> 00:59:12,316 [ Crying ] 732 01:00:09,874 --> 01:00:12,409 [ Murmuring ] 733 01:00:16,113 --> 01:00:18,448 [ Car Approaching ] 734 01:00:36,967 --> 01:00:38,903 [ Chuckles ] 735 01:00:41,038 --> 01:00:42,406 Baltazar? 736 01:00:47,644 --> 01:00:49,747 A bit late, aren't you, Joseph? 737 01:00:49,780 --> 01:00:54,018 I, uh, I feel it, you know? What you've been talking about? 738 01:00:54,051 --> 01:00:57,487 I've been doing the exercises, and I-- I feel it! 739 01:00:58,756 --> 01:01:01,358 Describe this feeling. 740 01:01:01,391 --> 01:01:05,930 Well, it's like this, you know, this sadness that I've been carrying around, 741 01:01:05,963 --> 01:01:08,065 it's just, you know-- It's lifted. 742 01:01:08,098 --> 01:01:11,135 And I feel-- I just feel-- I feel the love. 743 01:01:11,168 --> 01:01:14,004 I feel in love with-with myself. 744 01:01:19,309 --> 01:01:20,544 Hmm. 745 01:01:26,150 --> 01:01:29,754 So, what's on for today? 746 01:01:29,787 --> 01:01:32,489 Nothing's on for today, Joseph. 747 01:01:32,522 --> 01:01:36,861 I have a very busy evening, a performance and a date. 748 01:01:37,795 --> 01:01:39,429 You have a date? 749 01:01:40,297 --> 01:01:43,133 Indeed. And so do you. 750 01:01:44,568 --> 01:01:47,371 It's time for you and Maria to make love. 751 01:01:52,142 --> 01:01:55,846 Now remember, make love from the heart, 752 01:01:56,747 --> 01:01:58,548 nowhere else. 753 01:01:58,582 --> 01:02:02,719 Keep your eyes open, move extremely slowly, 754 01:02:03,553 --> 01:02:06,023 and, most importantly, 755 01:02:06,056 --> 01:02:08,725 with love and adoration. 756 01:02:11,595 --> 01:02:14,264 What about the nine levels of orgasm? 757 01:02:14,298 --> 01:02:17,101 Later. Don't concern yourself with orgasm. 758 01:02:18,002 --> 01:02:21,071 For Maria, it will take much time. 759 01:02:21,105 --> 01:02:23,207 For you, it's forbidden. 760 01:02:33,851 --> 01:02:35,786 I feel the love. 761 01:02:38,222 --> 01:02:40,724 I love myself. 762 01:02:40,757 --> 01:02:42,592 -I love myself. -Congratulations. 763 01:02:42,626 --> 01:02:44,261 [ Chuckling ] 764 01:02:45,930 --> 01:02:48,432 I love myself three times a day. 765 01:02:48,465 --> 01:02:50,034 I feel the love. 766 01:03:07,217 --> 01:03:09,353 [ Laughter ] 767 01:03:09,386 --> 01:03:11,922 Oh, God! 768 01:03:11,956 --> 01:03:14,691 Okay. I'll talk to you later. Bye. 769 01:03:27,171 --> 01:03:30,174 [ Dialing ] 770 01:03:30,207 --> 01:03:32,742 [ Ringing ] 771 01:03:34,845 --> 01:03:36,113 Hello? 772 01:03:36,847 --> 01:03:38,515 What's so funny? 773 01:03:40,550 --> 01:03:42,452 How did you know I was laughing? 774 01:03:43,553 --> 01:03:46,256 Oh, I just know. 775 01:03:47,791 --> 01:03:52,662 I've been learning more and more about you every day. 776 01:03:52,696 --> 01:03:56,233 [ Chuckling ] So I see. 777 01:03:58,135 --> 01:04:01,671 -When are you coming home? -Soon. 778 01:04:01,705 --> 01:04:05,675 When I do, do you want to make love? 779 01:04:10,948 --> 01:04:13,383 I thought you wanted to wait. 780 01:04:15,685 --> 01:04:18,855 I mean, are you sure you're ready? 781 01:04:25,662 --> 01:04:27,597 Under one condition. 782 01:04:30,334 --> 01:04:31,969 What's that? 783 01:04:32,802 --> 01:04:34,604 You do it my way. 784 01:04:37,741 --> 01:04:40,844 Look, maybe we should just hold each other first. 785 01:04:40,877 --> 01:04:42,812 -Ow! -Shut up! 786 01:04:45,916 --> 01:04:47,384 Maria. 787 01:04:51,621 --> 01:04:53,123 Ow! 788 01:04:57,027 --> 01:04:58,528 [ Sighs ] 789 01:04:59,463 --> 01:05:02,066 Why are you doing this? 790 01:05:02,099 --> 01:05:03,934 'Cause I love your toes, 791 01:05:05,169 --> 01:05:06,971 and it excites me. 792 01:05:13,443 --> 01:05:15,379 [ Moaning ] 793 01:05:21,952 --> 01:05:23,620 Don't move. 794 01:05:25,855 --> 01:05:27,157 Ow. 795 01:05:28,725 --> 01:05:30,127 Ow. 796 01:05:32,696 --> 01:05:34,631 [ Groaning ] Hon. 797 01:05:43,974 --> 01:05:46,176 Oh, it hurts! 798 01:06:02,292 --> 01:06:04,228 [ Moaning ] 799 01:06:15,605 --> 01:06:17,741 [ Both Moaning ] 800 01:06:24,848 --> 01:06:28,252 I love you so deep inside me, Joseph. 801 01:06:30,387 --> 01:06:34,558 Oh, God, I feel you so-- So deep inside. 802 01:06:43,167 --> 01:06:45,001 Not so fast. 803 01:06:45,035 --> 01:06:48,438 Hon, no. No. I'm not supposed to come. 804 01:06:48,472 --> 01:06:50,974 -Huh? What? -I'm not supposed to come. 805 01:06:51,007 --> 01:06:53,343 -[ Whispers ] I'm not supposed to come. -I can't hear you. 806 01:06:53,377 --> 01:06:56,180 -Don't make me come. -What? 807 01:06:56,213 --> 01:06:57,881 [ Panting ] 808 01:06:59,649 --> 01:07:02,819 [ Laughing ] Too bad, motherfucker. 809 01:07:04,654 --> 01:07:07,124 [ Moaning ] 810 01:07:31,215 --> 01:07:33,383 [ Whispers ] Did you like it? 811 01:07:34,884 --> 01:07:39,189 -I guess she surprised us, huh? -Yeah. 812 01:07:39,223 --> 01:07:42,359 -I felt, um-- -Scared? 813 01:07:44,294 --> 01:07:47,931 A woman's anger can be very scary. 814 01:07:47,964 --> 01:07:52,302 Most don't feel they have the right to express it. 815 01:07:52,336 --> 01:07:56,606 Maybe we should encourage Maria to vent hers more often. 816 01:07:56,640 --> 01:07:58,508 -In bed? -Why not? 817 01:08:01,778 --> 01:08:05,149 Repressed anger chokes us, 818 01:08:05,849 --> 01:08:07,551 closes us down. 819 01:08:12,088 --> 01:08:15,359 Are you sure it was Maria's anger that scared you? 820 01:08:15,392 --> 01:08:17,594 What do you mean? 821 01:08:17,627 --> 01:08:19,896 How did it feel to be fucked? 822 01:08:21,097 --> 01:08:22,832 Out of control. 823 01:08:23,900 --> 01:08:25,702 How did you feel? 824 01:08:29,306 --> 01:08:30,574 Fear. 825 01:08:42,419 --> 01:08:45,522 I was over on Hinton Street the other day. 826 01:08:58,768 --> 01:09:01,104 [ Sighs ] 827 01:09:01,137 --> 01:09:03,473 Does he make you feel safe? 828 01:09:04,007 --> 01:09:05,575 Maria, I, uh-- 829 01:09:13,817 --> 01:09:16,453 Does he love you no matter what? 830 01:09:22,091 --> 01:09:23,560 So do I. 831 01:09:26,230 --> 01:09:30,567 * [ Violin ] 832 01:09:31,368 --> 01:09:33,002 Follow closely. 833 01:09:34,804 --> 01:09:37,040 Let me into your subconscious. 834 01:09:50,086 --> 01:09:52,021 [ Gasping ] 835 01:10:04,368 --> 01:10:06,403 Touch her like a harmonic. 836 01:10:06,436 --> 01:10:08,204 Gentle. Yin. 837 01:10:09,406 --> 01:10:15,945 * 838 01:10:16,780 --> 01:10:19,015 But sure, definitive. 839 01:10:21,751 --> 01:10:28,758 * 840 01:10:51,114 --> 01:10:53,483 [ Gasping ] 841 01:10:59,756 --> 01:11:01,525 Look at me. 842 01:11:03,327 --> 01:11:04,794 Look at me. 843 01:11:12,602 --> 01:11:19,609 * 844 01:11:58,782 --> 01:12:00,784 [ Shuddering ] 845 01:12:22,439 --> 01:12:25,008 [ Gasping ] 846 01:12:32,482 --> 01:12:35,318 [ Gasping ] 847 01:12:59,142 --> 01:13:02,579 [ Baltazar ] Now, movements five to nine. 848 01:13:03,513 --> 01:13:05,782 Support her neck with your hand, 849 01:13:05,815 --> 01:13:09,486 precisely at the fourth and fifth cervical vertebrae. 850 01:13:11,455 --> 01:13:12,922 Begin your toning 851 01:13:12,956 --> 01:13:16,259 and breathe into her neck through your hand. 852 01:13:18,127 --> 01:13:20,864 Energy follows consciousness. 853 01:13:20,897 --> 01:13:23,833 [ Rhythmic Breathing ] 854 01:13:38,347 --> 01:13:39,516 Maria? 855 01:13:39,549 --> 01:13:41,284 -[ Shuddering ] -Maria? 856 01:13:43,052 --> 01:13:45,121 Are you okay? 857 01:13:45,154 --> 01:13:47,991 -Hon. Hon! -[ Wheezing ] 858 01:13:48,024 --> 01:13:50,927 Maria! Honey? 859 01:14:13,416 --> 01:14:15,819 [ Gasping For Air ] 860 01:14:18,988 --> 01:14:20,990 [ Breathing Stops ] 861 01:14:23,527 --> 01:14:26,930 [ Lifts Receiver, Dialing ] 862 01:14:26,963 --> 01:14:29,032 [ Phone Ringing ] 863 01:14:36,806 --> 01:14:38,975 [ Indistinct Murmuring ] 864 01:14:41,010 --> 01:14:43,947 [ Indistinct Operator Paging Over P.A. ] 865 01:14:49,819 --> 01:14:51,988 -Joseph? -Yes, I'm Joseph. 866 01:14:53,857 --> 01:14:57,326 -Do you mind if my friends-- -Anyone you want. 867 01:14:58,895 --> 01:15:02,932 Okay, when Maria first arrived, 868 01:15:02,966 --> 01:15:05,569 her throat was almost swollen shut. 869 01:15:05,602 --> 01:15:08,538 We injected the throat with a strong anti-inflammatory. 870 01:15:08,572 --> 01:15:11,374 We also administered her a sedative, so she would rest. 871 01:15:13,543 --> 01:15:15,679 Now, to your knowledge, 872 01:15:15,712 --> 01:15:18,815 -has anything like this ever happened before? -No. 873 01:15:18,848 --> 01:15:20,817 Is she allergic to anything? 874 01:15:20,850 --> 01:15:24,487 -Any medication she might've taken? -Not that I know of. 875 01:15:24,520 --> 01:15:27,256 What were you doing when this occurred? 876 01:15:31,260 --> 01:15:32,896 We were making love, 877 01:15:34,230 --> 01:15:36,232 and she started crying. 878 01:15:37,300 --> 01:15:39,736 Then she started choking. 879 01:15:39,769 --> 01:15:43,907 She's been under a lot of abnormal stress lately. 880 01:15:43,940 --> 01:15:48,578 -She had a severe breakdown. -She had a body memory. 881 01:15:48,612 --> 01:15:52,716 Maria has endured some form of repeated child abuse. 882 01:15:52,749 --> 01:15:55,184 She shows almost all the external symptoms, 883 01:15:55,218 --> 01:15:56,720 but it's locked in her subconscious. 884 01:15:58,087 --> 01:16:00,523 Now she can begin the road to recovery. 885 01:16:00,556 --> 01:16:02,525 [ Alfred ] That's possible. 886 01:16:02,558 --> 01:16:06,229 Her memory could've triggered a spontaneous regression to some incident. 887 01:16:06,262 --> 01:16:09,766 Oral sex is one of the most common forms of infant abuse. 888 01:17:05,755 --> 01:17:07,991 [ Chattering ] 889 01:17:13,963 --> 01:17:17,967 [ Woman ] It's more about acceptance than forgiveness for me. 890 01:17:19,135 --> 01:17:22,505 I got a letter a year later. 891 01:17:22,538 --> 01:17:25,541 Now she denies that anything ever happened. 892 01:17:27,510 --> 01:17:28,912 That's all. 893 01:17:36,786 --> 01:17:37,954 Um-- 894 01:17:40,023 --> 01:17:42,658 My name is Maria, 895 01:17:42,692 --> 01:17:47,096 and I'm a survivor of child sexual abuse and incest. 896 01:17:49,766 --> 01:17:51,434 [ Exhales Deeply ] 897 01:17:52,869 --> 01:17:54,237 -Hey. -Hi. 898 01:17:54,270 --> 01:17:56,505 It's Maria's mother on the phone. 899 01:17:56,539 --> 01:17:58,074 [ Sighs ] 900 01:17:59,508 --> 01:18:01,110 [ Beeps ] 901 01:18:04,513 --> 01:18:06,515 [ Joseph ] Hello, Dottie. 902 01:18:11,220 --> 01:18:13,122 I support her, 903 01:18:13,156 --> 01:18:16,860 and I'm doing as best as I can as her husband in this situation, 904 01:18:16,893 --> 01:18:19,595 but does it really matter what I think? 905 01:18:21,397 --> 01:18:23,266 I realize that you think she's ill. 906 01:18:23,299 --> 01:18:24,667 She is getting help! 907 01:18:33,342 --> 01:18:35,578 Because I've seen her suffer! 908 01:18:37,213 --> 01:18:39,015 Well, I'm sorry, too, Dottie. 909 01:18:49,058 --> 01:18:50,860 [ Water Running ] 910 01:18:58,401 --> 01:19:01,905 -Honey, it's the fifth time today you've taken-- -Leave me alone! 911 01:19:01,938 --> 01:19:04,373 We have to talk about this, Maria. 912 01:19:05,308 --> 01:19:07,243 I just needed a shower. 913 01:19:17,286 --> 01:19:20,723 The other night, when you got up to go to the bathroom, 914 01:19:21,490 --> 01:19:23,927 I knew it was you, 915 01:19:23,960 --> 01:19:27,696 but what I saw was him, standing there, 916 01:19:30,133 --> 01:19:31,434 naked, 917 01:19:32,501 --> 01:19:34,470 ready to come to my bed. 918 01:19:36,472 --> 01:19:40,509 We need to separate, Joseph. I know I'm going crazy. 919 01:19:40,543 --> 01:19:43,346 You have to let me inside. 920 01:19:43,379 --> 01:19:45,248 You have to let me try to help you. 921 01:19:45,281 --> 01:19:47,683 I don't feel comfortable around you. 922 01:19:47,716 --> 01:19:49,452 Things that you do frighten me. 923 01:19:49,485 --> 01:19:50,854 Just tell me what I can do. 924 01:19:50,887 --> 01:19:53,656 When you touch me, I feel numb. 925 01:20:00,396 --> 01:20:04,700 I'm gonna sleep in the guest bedroom until you find another place to stay. 926 01:20:14,677 --> 01:20:17,513 [ Truck Horn Honking ] 927 01:20:24,320 --> 01:20:28,757 Living room, bar, kitchen. If you want to call it that. 928 01:20:28,791 --> 01:20:32,295 Closets, clean towels, fresh linens every other day. 929 01:20:33,096 --> 01:20:34,697 Any questions? 930 01:20:44,340 --> 01:20:45,975 [ Door Closes ] 931 01:20:49,278 --> 01:20:51,280 * [ Classical ] 932 01:20:52,715 --> 01:20:54,817 [ Hollow Thud ] 933 01:20:54,850 --> 01:20:56,552 [ Tools Rattling ] 934 01:21:02,926 --> 01:21:05,728 Not your most confident stride, Joseph. 935 01:21:13,836 --> 01:21:16,039 Maria asked you to leave. 936 01:21:19,475 --> 01:21:23,246 Listen, if you know everything that's gonna happen in my life for the next two years, 937 01:21:23,279 --> 01:21:25,414 why don't you let me know so I can plan my vacations. 938 01:21:25,448 --> 01:21:28,017 And know when to put my house on the market! 939 01:21:29,152 --> 01:21:31,120 Tell me what happened. 940 01:21:46,535 --> 01:21:48,972 It's what Maria's going through. 941 01:21:50,806 --> 01:21:53,076 What has to do with you, 942 01:21:53,109 --> 01:21:56,379 -[ Needle Scratches, Music Stops ] -has to do with you. 943 01:22:01,550 --> 01:22:04,988 What's that supposed to mean? 944 01:22:05,021 --> 01:22:09,625 You married a scarred and emotionally dysfunctional woman. 945 01:22:09,658 --> 01:22:12,996 Has it ever occurred to you to ask yourself why? 946 01:22:13,029 --> 01:22:16,599 Why you put up with so much in return for so little? 947 01:22:16,632 --> 01:22:19,735 Because I'm in love with her, okay? 948 01:22:19,768 --> 01:22:21,870 And because I believed in you. 949 01:22:21,904 --> 01:22:23,706 I believed that we could help her! 950 01:22:23,739 --> 01:22:28,144 Our relationship has never been about Maria. Never! 951 01:22:28,177 --> 01:22:31,814 You don't love Maria, Joseph. You want to mold her. 952 01:22:31,847 --> 01:22:34,783 You want to make her something for Joseph. 953 01:22:34,817 --> 01:22:38,887 And you've only ever proven to me that you'd do anything to make that happen. 954 01:22:38,921 --> 01:22:41,524 What do you know about love? Huh? 955 01:22:44,260 --> 01:22:47,263 Love is being there when they hate your fucking guts! 956 01:22:47,296 --> 01:22:50,133 Love is being there when they bleed. 957 01:22:50,166 --> 01:22:54,837 I mean, have you ever been with a woman for more than one hour? Ever? 958 01:23:07,050 --> 01:23:11,120 Wendy takes small steps every day to make herself attractive. 959 01:23:11,154 --> 01:23:13,156 She eats. Then she eliminates, 960 01:23:13,189 --> 01:23:15,191 through the esophagus, mind you. 961 01:23:15,224 --> 01:23:17,926 That's when she's not taking the latest laxative on the market. 962 01:23:17,960 --> 01:23:21,064 -[ Book Thuds ] -A beautiful woman, Leslie. 963 01:23:21,097 --> 01:23:26,269 God made her 5'5" and a voluptuous 128 pounds. 964 01:23:26,302 --> 01:23:28,737 But sometime, probably when she was a teenager, 965 01:23:28,771 --> 01:23:31,474 she got the idea that she wasn't so beautiful. 966 01:23:31,507 --> 01:23:32,975 Maybe it was because her friends, 967 01:23:33,008 --> 01:23:35,511 Debbie and Connie, were getting all the boys. 968 01:23:35,544 --> 01:23:38,347 But she started a program of repetitive surgery, 969 01:23:38,381 --> 01:23:40,916 to suck all the fat from her body. 970 01:23:40,949 --> 01:23:43,852 She started with her hips, her thighs, her tummy. 971 01:23:43,886 --> 01:23:47,056 Next month, unless we do something to help her, 972 01:23:47,090 --> 01:23:49,225 she'll continue with her arms and her ankles. 973 01:23:49,258 --> 01:23:50,393 They always do. 974 01:23:51,460 --> 01:23:53,696 Candy's had four implants. 975 01:23:53,729 --> 01:23:56,699 She just can't get it quite right. 976 01:23:56,732 --> 01:23:58,767 -[ Book Thuds ] -Evelyn, 977 01:23:58,801 --> 01:24:02,871 injects her face with cow fat six times a year. 978 01:24:02,905 --> 01:24:05,674 Jane. Two hours on the Stairmaster, 979 01:24:05,708 --> 01:24:08,177 an hour on a treadmill, daily. 980 01:24:09,945 --> 01:24:13,749 They dress to flaunt this, to hide that. 981 01:24:13,782 --> 01:24:16,319 They cover their faces with poisons. 982 01:24:16,352 --> 01:24:20,723 You're right. They do bleed, Joseph. And do you know why? 983 01:24:22,491 --> 01:24:26,495 Because they're desperate to sell what men buy. 984 01:24:26,529 --> 01:24:29,832 Desperate to be what they're not, to be loved. 985 01:24:30,633 --> 01:24:32,067 Like Maria. 986 01:24:34,137 --> 01:24:38,941 Have you ever thought that maybe your focus on Maria, 987 01:24:38,974 --> 01:24:42,811 is a distraction from your own fear of abandonment? 988 01:24:44,747 --> 01:24:46,615 Your own emptiness? 989 01:24:47,116 --> 01:24:48,784 Your own life? 990 01:24:51,019 --> 01:24:54,390 You want to be a healer? Heal yourself. 991 01:25:16,845 --> 01:25:19,315 This'll be painless. I promise. 992 01:25:19,348 --> 01:25:21,350 You're a deceptive asshole, you know that? 993 01:25:21,384 --> 01:25:23,752 All you gotta do is meet her. 994 01:25:23,786 --> 01:25:28,324 She just got divorced. She was married for two years. You guys got a lot in common. 995 01:25:28,357 --> 01:25:31,994 [ Clears Throat ] Now, uh, she's a little bit flat upstairs, 996 01:25:32,027 --> 01:25:34,430 but Nancy tells me she has a bodacious ass 997 01:25:34,463 --> 01:25:36,999 and is not afraid to use it. 998 01:25:38,267 --> 01:25:41,804 Tanner, do me a favor, okay? 999 01:25:41,837 --> 01:25:44,940 Never talk to me about a woman like that again. 1000 01:25:46,942 --> 01:25:48,977 What is wrong with you? 1001 01:25:50,779 --> 01:25:54,317 [ Maria Exhaling ] 1002 01:26:05,661 --> 01:26:07,363 [ Connie ] Joseph, are you with me? 1003 01:26:07,396 --> 01:26:10,966 Hmm? Yeah. [ Clears Throat ] Sorry. 1004 01:26:10,999 --> 01:26:14,102 Okay. Arthur wants you to take a meeting with the Kensor group. 1005 01:26:14,136 --> 01:26:15,471 Will you do it? 1006 01:26:16,939 --> 01:26:18,841 No. You know what? 1007 01:26:18,874 --> 01:26:22,611 Cancel my 2:30 meeting with Cruise, too, would you? 1008 01:26:22,645 --> 01:26:25,013 -Where you going? -Goin' out for a while. [ Sighs ] 1009 01:26:49,505 --> 01:26:52,441 [ Man, Woman Moaning ] 1010 01:26:56,178 --> 01:26:58,113 -Oh, God! -Oh! 1011 01:27:06,955 --> 01:27:09,725 [ Phone Ringing ] 1012 01:27:10,926 --> 01:27:13,362 -[ Lifts Receiver ] -Hello? 1013 01:27:16,532 --> 01:27:18,033 Yes, Doctor. 1014 01:27:20,202 --> 01:27:22,505 No. No, I'll be there. 1015 01:27:24,172 --> 01:27:26,108 3:00 Tuesday? 1016 01:27:27,476 --> 01:27:30,513 Yes, ma'am. Yes, I understand. 1017 01:27:37,520 --> 01:27:40,589 [ Woman ] They don't want to be alone in their healing anymore. 1018 01:27:40,623 --> 01:27:43,892 They want you to understand, to be aware 1019 01:27:44,793 --> 01:27:47,363 and to hear them. 1020 01:27:47,396 --> 01:27:50,766 Beyond that, there are no expectations. 1021 01:27:52,435 --> 01:27:54,403 Are there any questions? 1022 01:27:59,975 --> 01:28:04,413 Okay. Who would like to go first? 1023 01:28:04,447 --> 01:28:06,114 [ Maria ] I would. 1024 01:28:10,853 --> 01:28:12,187 Um-- 1025 01:28:13,989 --> 01:28:16,792 My name is Maria, 1026 01:28:16,825 --> 01:28:19,962 and my husband is Joseph. 1027 01:28:25,368 --> 01:28:27,736 [ Sniffling ] 1028 01:28:27,770 --> 01:28:30,673 From the time I was a baby, 1029 01:28:30,706 --> 01:28:33,509 until I was about ten years old, 1030 01:28:33,542 --> 01:28:37,079 I loved my father more than anything else. 1031 01:28:37,112 --> 01:28:40,248 Nobody could say anything bad about him to me. 1032 01:28:40,282 --> 01:28:42,651 The world loved him too. 1033 01:28:46,054 --> 01:28:50,125 [ Clears Throat ] I have recently remembered a lot of things. 1034 01:28:52,995 --> 01:28:56,164 I remembered that my father's favorite thing 1035 01:28:56,198 --> 01:28:59,101 was to kiss my vagina when I was a baby. 1036 01:29:01,370 --> 01:29:06,409 I remember that sometimes I'd wake up in the middle of the night sucking his penis 1037 01:29:06,442 --> 01:29:09,478 [ Chuckling ] I didn't even know what it was. 1038 01:29:13,181 --> 01:29:16,719 My mother went away on a trip when I was five years old. 1039 01:29:18,721 --> 01:29:21,857 This was the first time he put his penis in me. 1040 01:29:22,991 --> 01:29:24,793 I bled for days. 1041 01:29:28,096 --> 01:29:31,299 He told me that's what daddies and little girls do. 1042 01:29:31,333 --> 01:29:32,935 [ Chuckling ] 1043 01:29:32,968 --> 01:29:34,903 That it was our secret. 1044 01:29:36,939 --> 01:29:41,009 He made me believe that every father did that with their daughter. 1045 01:29:43,646 --> 01:29:45,380 So I believed him, 1046 01:29:51,219 --> 01:29:53,055 and I became that. 1047 01:29:56,959 --> 01:29:59,027 And I enjoyed it too. 1048 01:30:02,698 --> 01:30:05,333 It seemed to stop when I was about 11 or 12. 1049 01:30:05,367 --> 01:30:07,936 [ Sniffles ] I don't know why, 1050 01:30:09,237 --> 01:30:12,040 but I still loved him. 1051 01:30:12,074 --> 01:30:13,876 I had no choice. 1052 01:30:15,544 --> 01:30:18,013 I became the woman that my father wanted me to be. 1053 01:30:18,046 --> 01:30:19,948 I dressed how he told me to dress. 1054 01:30:19,982 --> 01:30:24,386 I presented myself as a happy, bubbly girl. 1055 01:30:26,088 --> 01:30:28,090 [ Chuckling ] Still do. 1056 01:30:31,560 --> 01:30:34,329 It's the way that I block the feelings. 1057 01:30:36,298 --> 01:30:38,767 It's the way that I block the pain. 1058 01:30:45,307 --> 01:30:46,642 Joseph, 1059 01:30:48,811 --> 01:30:51,246 I know I've been away a long time. 1060 01:30:53,716 --> 01:30:57,820 [ Inhales Deeply ] I had to confront my self-hatred, 1061 01:30:57,853 --> 01:31:00,322 and I am terrified of you. 1062 01:31:02,691 --> 01:31:05,628 But it's because you make me feel so good, 1063 01:31:07,896 --> 01:31:11,199 like my father did. 1064 01:31:11,233 --> 01:31:14,603 My father, who was supposed to keep me safe from harm, 1065 01:31:14,637 --> 01:31:16,171 was the harm. 1066 01:31:19,007 --> 01:31:20,809 Can you understand? 1067 01:31:23,946 --> 01:31:25,914 [ Sniffles ] 1068 01:31:26,915 --> 01:31:28,183 Do you? 1069 01:31:37,560 --> 01:31:40,796 [ Baltazar ] Look at the courage she has. 1070 01:31:40,829 --> 01:31:43,231 So many people go the other way, 1071 01:31:43,265 --> 01:31:45,768 live as victims. 1072 01:31:45,801 --> 01:31:49,104 They use their abuse as an excuse to close down, 1073 01:31:49,137 --> 01:31:51,006 to give in to life. 1074 01:31:51,907 --> 01:31:54,877 How do you let it go? 1075 01:31:54,910 --> 01:31:57,512 You look it straight in the eye 1076 01:31:57,546 --> 01:32:00,082 and risk letting someone love you. 1077 01:32:00,983 --> 01:32:02,918 Maria did that today. 1078 01:32:07,790 --> 01:32:11,560 She's gonna be a different woman when she gets through this. 1079 01:32:13,161 --> 01:32:14,529 Yes. 1080 01:32:19,401 --> 01:32:20,836 [ Sighs ] 1081 01:32:30,378 --> 01:32:32,948 You know, 1082 01:32:32,981 --> 01:32:35,283 it's not good for you to have so many orgasms. 1083 01:32:35,317 --> 01:32:37,552 You need to learn to preserve your yang 1084 01:32:37,586 --> 01:32:39,387 and prolong your sexual activity. 1085 01:32:39,421 --> 01:32:41,757 Good for you. Good for your wife. 1086 01:32:43,125 --> 01:32:46,361 -Okay. Thanks. -Sure. 1087 01:33:07,850 --> 01:33:11,486 [ Joseph ] I know, I know. I feel the same. Yeah. 1088 01:33:12,655 --> 01:33:15,357 That sounds good. Okay. 1089 01:33:16,324 --> 01:33:18,293 Right. Yeah. 1090 01:33:41,283 --> 01:33:43,485 -Hi. -Hi. 1091 01:33:47,455 --> 01:33:49,591 Do you want to have a seat? 1092 01:33:49,624 --> 01:33:50,859 Sure. 1093 01:33:56,098 --> 01:33:57,833 [ Sighs ] 1094 01:34:01,269 --> 01:34:03,806 Do you want to play "If you love me"? 1095 01:34:07,810 --> 01:34:09,745 -Okay. -[ Chuckling ] 1096 01:34:12,681 --> 01:34:14,082 Okay. 1097 01:34:18,821 --> 01:34:21,456 If you love me, 1098 01:34:21,489 --> 01:34:23,959 you'll understand that I needed time, 1099 01:34:25,193 --> 01:34:27,830 to separate you from my abuse. 1100 01:34:28,530 --> 01:34:30,098 [ Sighs ] 1101 01:34:31,834 --> 01:34:35,037 I still wake up every morning with my memories, 1102 01:34:37,305 --> 01:34:39,141 my nightmares, 1103 01:34:40,442 --> 01:34:42,377 but I'm facing them. 1104 01:34:45,013 --> 01:34:47,482 I can't help feeling ugly 1105 01:34:48,516 --> 01:34:49,985 and ashamed. 1106 01:34:58,794 --> 01:35:00,395 If you love me, 1107 01:35:02,664 --> 01:35:04,532 let me come home. 1108 01:35:33,561 --> 01:35:34,963 Baltazar? 1109 01:35:42,404 --> 01:35:44,206 -Hi. -Hi. 1110 01:35:44,239 --> 01:35:45,707 I'm Eva. 1111 01:35:46,809 --> 01:35:49,211 Are you here for a violin lesson? 1112 01:35:49,244 --> 01:35:51,780 No. Yes. Yes, yes, I am. 1113 01:35:51,814 --> 01:35:55,884 I, uh-- I think I've got the wrong time, 1114 01:35:55,918 --> 01:35:58,386 so I'd probably better just-- 1115 01:36:01,023 --> 01:36:02,925 Eva, this is Joseph. 1116 01:36:05,027 --> 01:36:06,328 We met. 1117 01:36:07,830 --> 01:36:09,297 Bye, lover. 1118 01:36:16,138 --> 01:36:18,273 I'll see you Friday, 1119 01:36:18,306 --> 01:36:21,009 unless you want to drop by the library. 1120 01:36:25,981 --> 01:36:27,715 Good night, Joseph. 1121 01:36:36,058 --> 01:36:37,926 -Client? -No. 1122 01:36:39,494 --> 01:36:42,530 That's the healing room. This is my bedroom. 1123 01:36:47,669 --> 01:36:49,104 A violin lesson, huh? 1124 01:36:49,137 --> 01:36:50,605 Yes. No. 1125 01:36:50,638 --> 01:36:53,075 Um-- 1126 01:36:53,108 --> 01:36:56,511 I-I haven't exactly told her what I do. I-- 1127 01:36:57,946 --> 01:36:59,915 I need a bit more time. 1128 01:37:05,353 --> 01:37:08,256 Isn't she glorious? 1129 01:37:08,290 --> 01:37:10,192 And you don't have to heal her? 1130 01:37:13,361 --> 01:37:15,397 Do you, uh-- 1131 01:37:15,430 --> 01:37:19,067 Do you ever smell her fragrance when she's nowhere around? 1132 01:37:19,935 --> 01:37:22,370 And do you-- 1133 01:37:22,404 --> 01:37:25,840 Do you know what she's thinking before she even begins 1134 01:37:27,409 --> 01:37:30,178 Do you dread all the moments in between? 1135 01:37:38,253 --> 01:37:39,922 Too bad for you. 1136 01:37:44,659 --> 01:37:46,328 [ Footsteps receding ] 1137 01:37:46,361 --> 01:37:49,764 * [ Violin ]